The Thoughts and Feelings of Graham...

so... i haven't wrote anything in a minute. you know i hate to let down the few and loyal citizens of the land of complex serenity... but... there's been nothing to write about. i have no muse.... no motivation. my life has been as blank as a wall in a psychiatric ward lately.

i am ultimately bored. comfortable... but bored. i have a ok job... it's good considering the circumstances. it's a blessing. things are good as far as my spiritual life. God is truly using the gifts he gave me and the music ministry is under reconstruction at my church and i'm proud of the work we're doing. so in the aspect of my life i stay busy.

i don't do much with the friends i have here... hell, we all work! it's crazy. and the love life... what love life? ugh... it's horrible. i'm still messing with my "constellation" but it's not going anywhere. not that i can see. it's not idle... it's more in neutral gear. there is another guy that's interested... but am i... hell no! but he's a cool dude. the more i talk to him the more i like him as a friend. sometimes i get it confused as more but then he always does or says something ignorant and/or premature and i quickly come to. he's definitely not a canidate.

i need a date!!! a real date... with someone who compliments me and i him. a degree, a 401k, insurance... a life. some ambition. some go getta! but here i swim in this lake of dismal fate that i will ever get a date (lol! that was good! the pen ain't too dry!;))!

the prototype that i have mentioned in previous blog... turned out to be the desperate carbon copy of my imagination. the guy is desperate and a hot mess. (i'm glad i didn't give him none... yes!) i can't wait to see him so i can give him the fan, ent. stare like nigga please. ugh... guys like him make me sick! you can't have your cake and eat it too... literally. he has been a grave dissappointment in more than one way.

well until the KING of Kings since a Prince for his Princess... I'll just have to sit here and wait.