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Friday, November 27, 2009

Small Change... feat. What is it to you?

your worth is less than small change...
to cry that to me...
is more than insane and...
your worth is less than small change...
......... small change is defined as someone or something insignificant and/or trifling.

i just gotta let this out...
i'm pretty sure that those of you who are my facebook friends see my statuses that i change on a pretty consistent basis. well lately it has been to people that are the equivalent of small change... or less there of. so if you have been keeping up with what i call the avieBaBie show... i have been sending subliminal messages to the forementioned that i know what's being said and what's going on.

these are people that i grew up with that attend my church. i know... crazy right. but me and the currency forementioned have never liked each other... since birth. deep right? this girl doesn't like me and i'm willing to bet you some money that if asked... this girl cannot tell you why she doesn't like me. but i can definitely tell you why i don't care for her. but that's a horse of a different color.

so.. i am friends with... what shall we call him?... we will just say him. well him likes me (he has been mentioned in one blog...) and small change likes him. now at first i wasn't really feeling him like that. to be honest i was 95% not feeling him at all. but time past and things have changed. so me and him have been spending time together and small change isn't feeling it.

now small change and him are not in any type of relationship. so because she's not getting his attention she uses facebook to vent her feelings about him... me... and everyone else she doesn't have the balls to say anything to.

this girl is damn psycho... she is obsessed with him and what me and him have going on. she asks him all these questions about us... and are we together... every day!

i just want to know... what business is it of yours?! you act as if me and you have been friends and i took something that was rightfully yours. girl bye! what is it to you that we are friends... you mad cause your not the bff anymore? lol

granted i might be wrong for responding subliminally to her desperate cries for attention. but if i have an audience... after awhile i'm going to give you a show.

more coming soon... unlike small change... i have a job to go to!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

so... i haven't wrote anything in a minute. you know i hate to let down the few and loyal citizens of the land of complex serenity... but... there's been nothing to write about. i have no muse.... no motivation. my life has been as blank as a wall in a psychiatric ward lately.

i am ultimately bored. comfortable... but bored. i have a ok job... it's good considering the circumstances. it's a blessing. things are good as far as my spiritual life. God is truly using the gifts he gave me and the music ministry is under reconstruction at my church and i'm proud of the work we're doing. so in the aspect of my life i stay busy.

i don't do much with the friends i have here... hell, we all work! it's crazy. and the love life... what love life? ugh... it's horrible. i'm still messing with my "constellation" but it's not going anywhere. not that i can see. it's not idle... it's more in neutral gear. there is another guy that's interested... but am i... hell no! but he's a cool dude. the more i talk to him the more i like him as a friend. sometimes i get it confused as more but then he always does or says something ignorant and/or premature and i quickly come to. he's definitely not a canidate.

i need a date!!! a real date... with someone who compliments me and i him. a degree, a 401k, insurance... a life. some ambition. some go getta! but here i swim in this lake of dismal fate that i will ever get a date (lol! that was good! the pen ain't too dry!;))!

the prototype that i have mentioned in previous blog... turned out to be the desperate carbon copy of my imagination. the guy is desperate and a hot mess. (i'm glad i didn't give him none... yes!) i can't wait to see him so i can give him the fan, ent. stare like nigga please. ugh... guys like him make me sick! you can't have your cake and eat it too... literally. he has been a grave dissappointment in more than one way.

well until the KING of Kings since a Prince for his Princess... I'll just have to sit here and wait.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

ahh... rain!

in the rain...
he kissed me...
a real kiss...
not a provoked one...
he wanted to...
and he did...
in the rain!

lol... it's corny but i just wanted to share my joy with you!